Katherine Heigl puzzled if she was a “bad person” after refusing to place herself ahead for an Emmy Award.
The 44-year-old actress received the coveted TV accolade for her function as Dr. Izzie Stevens on ABC medical drama ‘Grey’s Anatomy’ in 2007 however didn’t need to be thought of once more the next 12 months as a result of she “did not feel that [she] was given the material to warrant” such a prize and has now mirrored that it took her a number of years to return to phrases along with her resolution.
Speaking in an episode of Variey’s ‘Actors on Actors’ with former co-star Ellen Pompeo, she stated: “There was no a part of me that imagined a nasty response. I felt actually justified in how I felt about it and the place I was coming from. I’ve spent most of my life — I feel most ladies do — being in that people-pleasing mode. It’s actually disconcerting once you really feel like you’ve gotten actually displeased all people. It was not my intention to take action, however I had some issues to say, and I didn’t assume I was going to get such a robust response.
“It took me until probably my mid- to late-30s to really get back to tuning out all of the noise and going, ‘But who are you? Are you this bad person? Are you ungrateful? Are you unprofessional? Are you difficult?’ Because I was confused! I thought maybe I was. I literally believed that version, and felt such shame for such a long time, and then had to go, ‘Wait. Who am I listening to? I’m not even listening to myself. I know who I am.'”
Katherine went on to clarify that she was affected by nervousness on the time and admitted that the entire time was “all a bit of a blur” for her however within the years since has discovered the way to “work” on her psychological well being.
She added: “I was just vibrating at way too high of a level of anxiety. For me, it’s all a bit of a blur, and it took me years to learn how to deal with that, to master it. I can’t even say that I’ve mastered it, but to even know to work on it, that anxiety and fear — and stress is stress. And if you leave stress too long, unmanaged and unaddressed, it can be debilitating.”